Wednesday, November 14, 2007
Theme Song of the Week
This song really sums up life right now. There is so much going on but through it all I have to keep breathing and I have to keep pushing forward.
There are so many conflicts going on inside my head. It can be a challenge to push the thoughts and feelings to the back of my mind and move forward with my responsibilities for the day. If I wasn't able to find a way to bundle them up and hide them when I have to, then the stress that comes from these emotions would be completely debilitating and I would get nothing done.
In the last week, my stress was debilitating. What can I say... I'm not wonder woman (even though I like to think I am).
I hate what has happened to my family. This wasn't suppose to be my family. This was suppose to be the other guy. I hate that I have to sit back and watch J.R. struggle with everything. If it's not a physical struggle, it's a mental one. I hate that I can't help him. I hate that I can't comprehend what he's feeling.
I know that we are still in an adjustment phase and eventually we will settle in. It just seems as if it's taking forever.